H E R E I S T A N D…

I said with my last entry that I’m not happy with what’s happening in my life.  But srsly GOD is good all the time.  He knows how to turn your life into the brighter side.  Although I admit that I committed some mistakes and had some failures but I know it’s all part of God’s plan.  I know that I’m not the genius type of student but I’m really trying my very best to prove that I have something to show.  I realized that I should focus on my studies instead of anything else.  And also I’m trying to explore things that I don’t usually do.  Being a member in Teatro Org is really a big sudden change not just with my college life but also with my personal life.  Actually I’m not the kind of person who enjoys being in front of many people, I would prefer having a low profile life but then I realized that God gave me the talent and so I want to use it in a good way.  I’m hoping that I could maximize and develop what I believe in the talent that I have.

And with my love life.  Actually I don’t really care with this matter right now but I still have to put something in here because I know it will be boring without mentioning it.  Let me summarize everything.  There was this guy that I like in our school.  Whenever I see him, I don’t know what to do.  I can’t help but stare at him.  Well, I thought he likes me too but as I expected, he likes someone else.  So that’s so wonderful, right?  But that’s not the end of the world for me.  I know that I should move on and forget him because I’ll just hurt myself if I still continue liking him.  That’s absurd!  But I don’t regret liking him.   In fact I want to thank him for making me happy even though it’s just in a matter of short time.  If you happen to like me too, say it now before it’s too late.  Because the moment I’ve already moved on with you, it’s over.

Today is such a tiring day for me. We had our general practice for our Hip Hop Turbo Jam Exercise that will be performed tomorrow. Good luck to us! XD I thought this day would be just like any other day but I was wrong. I saw spongebob so yeah, it’s not just any ordinary day for me. ahahaha SPONGEBOB= MUSHROOM. Spongebob is like popping out of nowhere in your least expected moment.  So it’s like I have to be prepared everyday, every hour, every minute, every second because like i said spongebob is a mushroom. LOL XD

MUSHROOM= SPONGEBOB, SPONGEBOB= MUSHROOM… ahahaha =P

I can’t believe I’m feeling this again. There’s a guy that I’m liking right now but I’m afraid that he won’t even take the time looking at me. I don’t know but everytime I look at him, I’m feeling something that I can’t really explain. It’s like a mixed emotions. He seemed friendly but you know, I’m really shy to get close to him. I don’t know what’s wrong with me. I really hate myself for being like this! I wish I have enough courage to talk to him. I wrote a poem so long ago and now I finally know the use of it. So here’s the poem.

OMFG! How could I be so stupid? I could be the happy person on earth if that’s true but then i found out that it’s the other way around. I wanna hit you-know-who-must-not-be-named with a jackhammer! Damn!!!! I’m not really sure if you-know-who-must-not-be-named is a human being after all. But I admit that I also made a mistake. The problem with me is that I assumed everything the way I want it to be. Wala na aqng kadaladala! Paulit ulit n lng nangyayari skn yun. Naiinis n aq s srili q. When will I learn my lessons? I can’t even answer that myself. But you-know-who-must-not-be-named is a damn effin biatch you know! That effin biatch can go to hell srsly…