H E R E I S T A N D…

I can’t believe I’m feeling this again. There’s a guy that I’m liking right now but I’m afraid that he won’t even take the time looking at me. I don’t know but everytime I look at him, I’m feeling something that I can’t really explain. It’s like a mixed emotions. He seemed friendly but you know, I’m really shy to get close to him. I don’t know what’s wrong with me. I really hate myself for being like this! I wish I have enough courage to talk to him. I wrote a poem so long ago and now I finally know the use of it. So here’s the poem.

So today is nothing but an ordinary day for me except for the fact that my usual schedule was changed because I decided to watch a basketball game. It’s a game between BSIT[our section] and DIT[the other one]. But unfortunately, they didn’t win the game but it’s okie. I think they had fun. hahaha 8D After watching the game we went to Kevin’s house and took a rest for awhile and then some of my classmate decided to go home. So after some of my classmates left, Kevin asked as out to have pizza. We went to the pizza parlor and then took a tour over the subdivision. It’s really tiring but I had fun. I got to visit Michelle’s house again because it’s been like years since I saw their house. Then when we’re about to go back to Kevin’s house to get our things, I decided to go to my best friend’s house near Michelle’s place but then I realized that my umbrella is at Kevin’s house so I have no choice but to go back. Then after walking for a couple of minutes, we decided to take a rest in a park but after awhile we decided to continue walking until we reached their house. We took our things and bid our goodbyes. It was such a nice experienced talking to them and having the oppurtunity to bond with them. They’re really nice and I’m looking forward in doing it again. wheeeeeeeewwwwwww What a day! =D

Last time I was really pissed off but now, it’s the other way around. Something happened today which made me really happy. OMG! I am happy happy happy now!~ But I’m afraid that in every happiness there’s always a price that I have to pay. Sometimes we’re more lonely than happy. And everytime we’re happy, after a moment it will be replaced by loneliness. But you know, it’s part of our life and we can’t do anything about it. OMG! Idk what I’m saying right now. All I know is that I am happy and I hope it will last this for week, month, year but it would be so great if it would be forever. hahaha I know it will not happen because there’s no forever. Everything has ending. But you know, we still have to live our life to the fullest.

OMFG! How could I be so stupid? I could be the happy person on earth if that’s true but then i found out that it’s the other way around. I wanna hit you-know-who-must-not-be-named with a jackhammer! Damn!!!! I’m not really sure if you-know-who-must-not-be-named is a human being after all. But I admit that I also made a mistake. The problem with me is that I assumed everything the way I want it to be. Wala na aqng kadaladala! Paulit ulit n lng nangyayari skn yun. Naiinis n aq s srili q. When will I learn my lessons? I can’t even answer that myself. But you-know-who-must-not-be-named is a damn effin biatch you know! That effin biatch can go to hell srsly…