H E R E I S T A N D…

I can’t believe I didn’t update my blog for days!  Well, it’s because I’ve been sleeping for a few days! I don’t know, I just feel like I want to sleep and sleep and sleep! That’s why I keep on missing danny on the chat! *shoots herself* But because I didn’t sleep this afternoon, I had the chance to catch him online! Yay! haha XDDD

It’s not really a long chat because he went out to go clubbing.  Too bad I missed to hear him in the first part of the chat because the speaker is not available at that time.  But because I’m too desperate to hear his voice, I fixed the problem! haha =P Actualy I’m not inspired to do a long entry for today, I just want to show that I’m not dead! I’m alive! Yes I am!!!

Btw, I changed my fs name from “Aki” to “xxgraciexx”. I’m just sick and tired of my old name and decided to chage it.  Aki is dead and so we should forget her. Past is Past! haha lol~ I chose xxgraciexx because ny nickname is gracie and I decided to pu xx in the front and end of it. I find it very pleasant to my eyes and ears! Any violent reactions, please proceed to your message section and kindly inform it to me.  I would love to kick some butts today~ haha No! Just kidding guys~ XDD

I hope to chat Danny more often this week and I hope that people would actually stop posting his chat videos because he will be in trouble.  He’s still under the contract of AI and posting videos of it is definitely a violation of the contract.  So please, if you love Danny and still want to catch him live, please erase all his chat videos for his own sake and for the sake of our fandom. I know i’ve been spamming comments in youtube saying please erase his chat videos but I have to do it because I love Danny! If you love Danny, you will follow what he said. DON’T POST HIS CHAT VIDEOS ANYMORE IN YOUTUBE”.  That’s all thank you~~

ciao!!!

What a day! just got home from our graduation ceremony! So tiring and stomach- squeezing event! haha so we’re like being there at exactly 5:30 in the afternoon and it started at 7:00 in the evening so I was like “WTF?!?!”. Is this suppose to happen? My God! So we’re just like waiting the rain in the middle of la nina!! haha But all in all the event went ok and so i was! haha.

oH God! i’m so tired! I need to sleep so probably I’ll be posting something about this again…

ciao~

Gee! Tomorrow is “the day”!. It’s our Graduation Day! I wonder what would be my look for tomorrow. Am I going to have straight or curly hair? Which is which! Naaa! I’m confused! My BFF’ mom invited me to come and visit at their house to have lunch!  Oh-lo!!! Her mom is so sweet, isn’t she? I love my BFF! So sad we have to part ways!! Y_Y Anyways, let’s go back in the topic. Her mom invited me and so I will be there! My BFF, Ann asked me if I’ll curl my hair because if so, her sister will curl it for me.  Awe!! Now it’s her sister!  Sweet! Gee!! hahaha XDD So I’m thinking if I’ll have my hair curly or straight! Well, let’s just find out! 8D

  Well, Danny went online again and of course it made me really happy for the nth time. My GOD! haha XD he even said that he wished that he was an Asian! And I was like o.O Gosh I’m Asian and I’m proud to be one. He’s working on a album and I said to myself that it should be entitled “FIERCE”..it’s nice’s, isn’t it?

well, i have to go and I need some sleep because it’s already late…

ciao~

I’m so happy today! Danny went online awhile ago and he’s so cute! He was so entertaining and funny! I can’t get enough of him! He’s TMTH! Gosh! I love his shirt! <333 And I’ve seen his pic with Rami and they were so cute! They even have the pic showing their heart sign they called "Corazon". I so love it! <333

Well, today is the Graduation Day of my little sister, Lovely. Happy Graduation my dear sister! I love you so much! Muahx! I hope you will have a nice experience when you enter high school. I promise that it will be fun than elementary! haha 8D As for me, I’m going to graduate from high school this coming Wednesday! I can’t believe how the time goes so fast! What a journey it has been….

I can’t believe that I missed the chat again! Damn!! I shouldn’t hesitate to open the pc last night! If I only knew~ grrr!!! I’m so freakin’ stupid! On the chat last night, Rami was there and visited Danny at his house. I saw some caps from the chat and they look so cute together! I wish I am Rami! Lucky girl!!! And i read from one comm that they said that they were already engaged! o.O Is that for real? haha I don’t have anything against it and if that’s actually true, I would be happy for them~ At least I know that Danny is not really gay *duhhh*! haha XDD

gotta go~~ ciao!

Oh God! I don’t know if i’ll be pissed off or be flattered with her! I don’t know her reason for faking me or using my pic but I’m pretty sure that she should stop it right now.  Using my pic is just ok with me at first but now that he’s posting comment to my friend and telling to him that she pity me for faking her although I’m the real one. Her name is Lorainne!  What a name! That’s absurd!! My God! I can take her using my pic but to the point that she’s already stealing my indentity is a serious matter now! I can’t just standby and wait for her next move.  I must take actions now! But how? I don’t know what to do! Is there anything that I can do with this kind of problem? How can I get rid of her?  I really want to know right now! Asap!! She’s private so I can’t see what really inside of her account. Damn! She’s so smart! Anyway, here’s the link for her profile "lorainne d faker"

Anyway, let’s go far from that damn thing.  Today is saturday and Danny is not yet home from that cruise thingy and I’m so excited to see him online again.  Well, while he’s stil enjoying his stay there, I got to do my on thing. I watched television, chat with my friends, go to my best friend’s house to watch KT Concert DVD and I’m tellig you, they’re all damn hotties! haha Sorry Danny, I just couldn’t help it! *shoots herself* And then after that I felt sorry for betraying my Danny so I watch those cute fanvids/tributes Danimals made for him.  I just couldn’t help but cry again when i watch a particular vid that was part of the bulletin post of her Mama Bonnie! Oh God! I love you Mama Bonnie! Muahx!! Here’s the (vid) of that amazing video~~ Hope you like it! OMFG! I don’t know what’s with me but I really love faggots! I just don’t know why! haha It’s like they have the aura that I really like.  I said in my previous post that (JP Calderon) is a super hot fag and now it’s (Christian Siriano)! he’s so damn freakin’ fashion faggot guru! The first time I’ve watched him on project Runway, I said to myself that he will win the competition and look at him now, Project Runway season 4 Grand Winner!! I knew! It’s with his aura and stuff like that!  I just can’t describe him with those words in the dictionary! he’s more than any description! Do you get what I’m trying to imply here? Well, it’s your problem not mine. ahaha XD

Ok I have to go! Ciao~

I can’t believe that she was voted off!! I thought it will be Kristy this time since she was on the bottom three for the past few weeks.  Kristy is such a lucky girl!! As for Amanda, she’s an amazing girl and lucky enough to be on the top 12 unlike my Danny!  Oh God! I miss him so much!!! Get out of that f*cking cruise now!!! haha lmao~~ I know he’s enjoying his stay there and who am I to stop him! Who am I? I’m his wife!! Mrs. Noriega! haha I’m insane!!! Yes I am!! hahaha And one thing, Rami is so cute! I’m so proud of her. haha I just love her~~ She’s nervous everytime it’s elimination day.  Ryan often hug her when he’s announcing if she will be eliminated. Poor Rami, Danny is not there to be with her…Danny come back now!!! I want you right night!! I want to chat with you again! Get out of that f*cking cruise now!!! hahaha =P

I’m planning to start writing letters for my friends because it’s the only thing that I can do for them, to write letters! not love letters ok!! haha Well, of course I will write everything that I feel for them and say my apologies and thankies!! I hope I can finish those letters before our graduation day. I’m planning to give it to them on our graduation day! I hope they will like it.  My handwriting is not ugly ok! haha Now I’m bragging again! I hate when I’m bragging! I often brag about something but at least it’s true. hahaha ok this is enough!! I have to go and I need to sleep. But before I go, I want to post my favorite song right now..I love the lyrics of this song…

OMG! I didn’t know that JP Calderon is a faggot!  He’s so hot and so masculine.  How could he be a faggot?  But well, he’s a freakin’ hot faggot!  Hotter than those homophobic guys! I just love faggots!! haha that’s true duhh!! After my previous entry, about that skeleton in my closet stuff, do you think I’m so fierce guys? Yes I am!! Definitely!! haha now I’m bragging! I’m just kidding guys! Muahh!! Oh God! I better go to bed because it’s already 1:30 pm now.

P.S

I miss my f*cking danny right now but I have no choice but to wait for him until saturday…anyway, he’s still fierce!!!

Ok! Ciao~

Wheww~~ I think I’ll be saying goodbye to my high school life without having any bf. haha^^ Oh God! I can’t believe I’m talking about this matter with you guys! Now it’s a open secret!! haha~~ To tell you honestly I never had a bf before! Since birth!! Oh, actually I had one! is he counted? haha Well, I don’t think he should actually be called as a bf because I didn’t had the chance to meet him in person~~ To make it official, he’s just an online bf!! haha Obviously I’m just tripping out when I did have connection with him(as if!) haha!! I just want to have the experience of having a bf but in our case, our only connection is internet and our cps.  I’m so weird that time. I can’t believe that I actually did that kind of stupidity!! hoho Yes! I think I’m just out of my mind when I did that craziness…

At first, it’s kinda fun but after weeks, ermmm…the excitement was gone, specially my excitement~ haha bad girl! At that time, I really don’t know what to do. I want to tell him that I want to cut our connection but I can’t think of an idea.  When I’m actually instigating the idea of letting go, he’s starting a drama that I just don’t like~ like "don’t you love me anymore?" so I was like o.O what should I answer? drama king? haha whoever you are, I’m so sorry for letting this out! haha Do you know who you are? well, I don’t care!! haha So by the time he realized that it should be over, I’m so relieved! haha bad bad girl! How did I know? Well, it’s really easy to know. He goes like "you know what, i kinda feel that you’re already cold to me" haha and i said to myself "yeah right!" hoho^^ and then I answered "huh, really? why do you say so? did I do something wrong?" but you know that was just ermmm…that’s it! got it? haha well, the hell i care! I’m a chola!! whooo!!

and the craziest thing that i did was to pretend that I was hurt..haha I’m such a crazy girl! So I asked myself. What should I do? so I came up with the idea of pretending that I’m crying on the phone and I was like huhuhuuhu *sobs* well, I love acting, it’s my passion…I love being on stage and the script, well I don’t need it! It’s just a matter of voice projection and stuffs like that.  So when I was pretending that I’m crying on the phone, actually I was chatting with my friends from other countries.  I said to them that I have to do some acting tonight and it will take a few minutes and they said they’ll wait.. And they did! awe!! such a very understanding online friends!!! love you all!! muahugs!!*blush* and well after talking to him I felt relieved!! hahaha I doubt if he really believed my crying part because I felt like it was obviously scripted but well, it’s his problem not mine. hihihihi!!! actually I have a question to him if he happens to read this particular entry…This maybe absurd asking you about this but ermmm… Did you actually believe that I cried on the phone?

So that is just one of my skeletons of my closet! haha bye and goodnight to all!! xoxo

As days pass by, the thought of parting ways with the people who i really love the most is so depressing.  Of course I want to graduate!(who the heck doesn’t want to?) But I don’t want to be without them. I know I’ve said that over and over again but I just can’t help it.  It’s really hard to be away from those important people that you’ve been with for several years.  I hope you guys understand what i’m feeling right now =(

During our graduation rehearsal, when we’re singing "Journey", I can’t help but be sad =(.  That song really hit me!! *ouch!* anyway here’s the song…

JOURNEY

Half the world is sleeping,
half the world’s awake
half can hear their hearts beat
half just hear them break

I am but a traveler, in most every way
Ask me what you want…to know

What a journey it has been
And the end is not in sight
But the stars are out tonight
and they’re bound to guide my way

When they’re shining on my life
I can see a better day
I won’t let the darkness in,
what a journey it has been.

I have been to sorrow
I have been to bliss
Where I’ll be tomorrow,
I can only guess

Through the darkest desert
Through the deepest snow,
Forward always forward, I go..

What a journey it has been
and the end is not in sight
But the stars are out tonight
and they’re bound to guide my way

When they’re shining on my life
I can see a better day
I won’t let the darkness in,
what a journey it has been…

Forward, always forward…
Onward, always up…
Catching every drop of hope
In my empty cup

What a journey it has been
And the end is not in sight
But the stars are out tonight
and they’re bound to guide my way

When they’re shining on my life
I can see a better day
I won’t let the darkness in,
what a journey it has been…

What a journey it has been…